So i was recently asked what my "Sob Story" is that got me into yoga. And over the last few days i had realised, i never even thought about it. I just assumed i didn't have one. But when i really reflected back.. this is what happened:
M Y S T O R Y //
So i was asked the other day what my yoga ‘sob story’ was or why I turned to yoga as a way of life.. because as you can probably tell, it literally is my life.
I don’t really have any specific turning point or moment of realisation. I guess it was just a gradual growing and understanding process.
I started yoga a few years after my beautiful mother passed away.
I was at a time in my life where although I was truly happy, surrounded by loved ones, fully supported by friends & family and had everything in my life that I wanted, I was still a bit lost & confused.
Trying to keep positive, but it was just so unfair. I had a lot of pain inside of me and as much as I loved to talk about my mother to keep her spirit alive, I never spoke about how I felt after her death. I did not want my dad, nor my brothers to see me sad as it truly broke my heart whenever I saw them in the situation.
I’ve been trying to think for a while about what it was that actually made me turn to yoga, and as I write this I can’t help getting emotional as I’m literally now realising that this is the first time I’ve ever spoken about this to anyone, let alone online.
This pain I feel in my chest right now is a sensation I haven’t felt in a long time and I guess I thought I was ‘over it’ (outgrowing the loss) But I’m realising, it is a part of me. It’s who I am. And I don’t ever want to get over it.
And I’m not writing this for you to pity me by any means, because I wouldn’t change a thing in my life. I have learnt through hardship that there is always hope, and there is always growth.
But here’s where yoga has come in. It has allowed me to see the strength I have within my own mind. It has helped me to find peace in difficult situations and more importantly it’s helped me to connect back to me, to create beautiful groups of people made from pure love. It’s given me the confidence to be vulnerable, and to turn that into a strength.
Pain sucks. It’s uncomfortable. It hurts like hell. But we are strong.
So, I thought it was about time to share my story so that you can really understand who I am, what I believe & how yoga has really changed my life.
And if you’re still reading and I’ve managed to at least help one person who could be going through a similar situation or just wanting to turn to yoga after going through any difficult situation, then that is enough.
Check out the post on my FB page: https://www.facebook.com/sazyoga/photos/a.679080238917269/1346397572185529/?type=3&av=678039242354702&eav=AfZT6NKbOwmhwI1SVanVHBEu_RDnfcgUCZzRCOSZ4q-1_iul5usHkRfxUYhahIG0V3U&theater